Shaking Hands

Someone told me more than once that they know I am serious, by my very first handshake upon meeting me. I do take handshakes serious. I am glad to hear this is communicated, because often I feel my messages are not clear. Anyway, I was due a bloodwork checkup and a disease percentage check. Honestly, … Continue reading Shaking Hands

Time

How do I express what it is like to live a life that feels so foreign to anything I could have ever imaged for myself? The last several months have been a whirlwind of emotions (nothing new, sadly); but something has changed in the way in which I process them. I have been quite happy … Continue reading Time

Filming Life

I hear this statement at least once a day, sometimes more when referring to how I juggle the overwhelming responsibility of managing a living on a veterans pension, social security disability, and child support when there are extenuating health circumstances, a fixed income + raising two teenage daughters in the most expensive county - "I … Continue reading Filming Life

mother and daughter symbiosis

Starting this process with my daughter was scary at first, but it turned into a project that we were both passionate about. I was able to get my daughters perspective and give her mine, and share research I have gotten on recovery and resources. I am able to understand her better, even when I do … Continue reading mother and daughter symbiosis

Be the water

If you had a choice to be a Rock, or to be Water, which would you choose? What is the strongest? Dr. Wayne Dyer says: “Water is the softest of all things, yet it is the most powerful. The ocean patiently allows all things to flow into it. It is always flexible.” I am the … Continue reading Be the water

Courageous

Today was the first year of my youngest daughters sophomore year of high school. The way she walked into that school today made me drop my jaw. This school looks like a manufacturing plant for politicians, 50 shades of Khaki is the uniform the boys wear, and the girls are just like the wives of … Continue reading Courageous

Myeloma Update

The girls went to Johns Hopkins with me this time, and somehow I remembered these things much more painful during the process, but it is actually áfter' a bone marrow biopsy to your hip that you 'really' feel what they did back there. I have attached a photo for people with my humor. They did … Continue reading Myeloma Update

Take a Ride with me…

 I carry around a backpack that doubles as a family records filing cabinet.  Most days you can find me in a lobby waiting at any point.  I have time to learn a lot about myself and my children in all this 'down-time'.  If a child is struggling with depression aggravated by an all-consuming-Eating Disorder... parents/caregivers … Continue reading Take a Ride with me…